It seems like I have never ever live and travel in real, I have never ever relax in real. Always thinking next step and future and what i am gonna do and what I should do. How to get fun. How to say a story. Sometimes I need to free the rein to myself. I get used to everything under control, but it waste too many time in my life. I don't know how to have fun, too much rational thought, it had better try to block my brain completely. I don't know where are my emotions going? They were there when as a kid, but lost somehow. I have felt not like human sometimes, trying to be a human. Need to be rational and emotional at same time. Incomplete traveler, insufficient human being. Release my thoughts, sometimes just follow the impulse, sometimes say some stories, no tight too many things to own self. Otherwise, cannot feel relax and enjoy in life. Face own desire and dream, do whatever I want sometimes, the way to live is not easy, but it's possible to make it easy. I will do my best to improve it, although it's hard, but just keep doing it, hope I can enjoy completely in everything, and able to say a lot of good stories.